3 months or less...THANK GOD

There aren't words for this.

So excited!

Today has been such a good day. I have gotten some wonderful e-mails from John today and yesterday so that has been amazing!

This morning I went to Macy's and bought us a wonderful food processor and crock pot. They had such great sales and I also got a military discount. I saved over $100 so I was really pleased with that. I made a registry there too, but there is hardly anything on it. All of our registry is at Bed Bath and Beyond. But it was still fun to walk around with that scanner thing.

After that I did more couch shopping and I think I found our couch and love seat! I am sooooo excited about it because its so nice and its perfect. I just need to wait to hear back from John to see if he wants me to get it now or wait until he is home. I thought we were going to pick it all out together but he has sorta changed his mind on that one and I think wants everything ready for him when he gets home. Either way is fine with me, I just want him to be happy. We have talked about the couch and stuff a little bit and I know that he would be happy with the ones I found but I still need to get his ok before I move forward. Hopefully I will hear back from him soon.

Tonight is going to be great too! We are having a girls night at Christina's house and that should be a lot of fun. I am going to just relax for the night hour until I need to leave. Those hours of relaxation this point forward are going to be few and far between but hopefully that will make the next 3 months go by fast!!!!!!

COOL

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

really? like really really?

omg....

that is all.

minus the fact that i need to hear his voice soon
it has been far too long since our last phone call.

the end.

Cincinnati

I am in Cincinnati visiting my "new" family. John's parents and sisters are really awesome and I am so happy that I have them in my life now. I am having a really nice time but it is a little sad being here without John. I loved getting a tour and seeing where he used to play soccer and went to school but I wish he was here. I am really having a nice time though just hanging out with my in-laws and my sister-in-law. I am excited for Christmas when we all can be together again!

Today is the 13th so that means we have been married another month! I have not heard John's voice since last month so it would be amazing if he could call today but I highly doubt that will happen. Communications have been like none existent in the last 2 weeks. I have gotten a few short e-mails but not more than like 5 I think. He has been working 30 + hour shifts and hardly getting sleep. He wrote me one e-mail that made me cry about how he can handle the work but that he couldn't handle not being bale to talk to me. I really miss him. There is no way to explain it to anyone who hasn't done this before. I do think that it is so important and helpful that I have so many wonderful people to talk to and get support from. I am also so thrilled that school starts up on the 24th because then I will be super busy.

Work is going really well. I would like to let everyone know though if you have been charged with attempted murder, you cannot join the army. There have been some sketchy kids in our office lately.

I had Skyline yesterday and somehow figured out how to order slash sit slash everything all on my own. I also got to see my lil buckeye! It was so nice to see her because it has been like forever.

We are getting ready to head out but I figured I should probably do this plus I wanted to say my own happy anniversary to us without making it all public and out there. My mom is so cute though because she sends me a text message on every 13th since John is not home. I love my momma...Anyway, today should be a nice day.

Time to go do the hair, maybe...

Really...

The past few days have been, well, interesting. So much has gone down and I honestly am just so over it. I don't care anymore. I care about my family and myself. I have so much to focus on for my own success and career and also for John and I. Our life together is what is important and that is the end.

I am back to being all positive about the deployment now. No matter what happens, I have some wonderful people behind me and frankly, that is all I need.

I have not heard anythign from John in a few days but that is ok. I know that communications keep going down and he is working so hard and keeping such long hours that I know he is just stretched. I am excited to hear from him again soon though. Today is the 4 more months marker and that is amazing!

People are ridiculously stupid.

Work this week will most likely suck but then next week I get to go to Cincinnati and see part of John's wonderful family.

I got another package together to mail tomorrow and I really think that John is going to love this one. It has so many randomly awesome things and I was really happy putting this one together.

I need to finish my homework and yes it is almost midnight, wonderful. One more week of summer classes then its two weeks off and then its the fall semester. Awesome. Well at least I am a senior!!

Oh and Jess, the South is the following:

Alabama

Georgia

North and South Carolina

Everything else falls into something else. :)

I suck at life.

So I finally get a phone call from John and I spend the whole conversation crying. I am so mad at myself. I just have hit such a rut in this deployment. I was doing so well and now I can't do anything but miss him and be upset. I need to get back into the positive mood I was in. I hate the fact that I have him thinking that I am a mess back home and that he won't be able to call me back for another week or so maybe longer. I need December to be here now. I miss him more than anything and I just want him back home...

Dear Deployment,

I hate you. That is all.

Love,
Cathleen