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so it is just one of those nights where i can't sleep. maybe it is fron basically sleeping wednesday through to sunday. the flu will do that to you. good news is i am feeling better so that is good. i have so much work to do that i obviously couldn't do this weekend but i will just make up for it this week. it is mostly packing and such. i am really coming down to my last leg to pack and i still have probably 1/3 of the work left to go. my plans for the last 1/3 basically break down to 8 steps and then it is on to loading the suvs and then the moving truck and then the unpacking. however the unpacking is goign to be so much more fun then packing. i am so excited to get into our new place and start to make it ours. i know time will fly by once we get to this point.

another thing that really has been bothering me is just how people are about this deployment. it is so hard when people put it in your face about how often they get to hear from their marine. and even harder when people complain when its been 3 days since their last phone call. i just dont know what to say to that. john basically works 24 hours a day. he doesnt do the 8 hour shifts that some guys have gotten. his job is demanding and he is the only one who can do it which is why he gets to work 40 hours in a row or sleep at work because there isnt even time for him to go back to the tent. i am so proud of him and when other marines tell me how hard he is working it just proves my pride for him. i understand how this all works and i know that he is not not calling because he doesnt want to talk to me but rather he just cant and anytime he tries, the phones wont work. it just sucks tho when i have to listen to other people complain when i have to sit there and i have only heard my husband's voice once sine july. it breaks my heart but at the same time i just thnk of how proud i am of him and how lucky i am to have someone so special to miss. soon enough i will be standing in that hanger and i will get to see him. that moment is going to be amazing and i know i am going to cry haha. i am hoping that his other letter he mailed comes soon because it really should have been here by now. oh well maybe tomorrow.

basically my life is just school, army, and packing. everything is going well and i am mostly in a positive mood all the time. most days are good and i really can't complain. i am just so excited to move and then for homecoming. this week should be good. i guess i am goign to try this sleep thing again. not that anyone really reads this but if anyone does i hope you are doing well and having a good day or night.